It's after midnight and I am absolutely dizzy and queasy with tiredness, and about to head to bed, but I checked my comments on my last entry, and found more wondering about having more news of my other children - one of which referenced not knowing my little three children like the older ones, and then, quote: "And maybe that's the way you like it."!!! That's an odd thing to say! :/
I am so heavy-hearted and sad about not being able to keep up with blogging about family life. It has taken me years to come to terms with it, for my own sanity - I just can't carve out the time, or else something else has to give, and there's nothing left!! I hate, truly hate, that I have little in the way or records of my youngest children. It makes me feel so sad! I can't do it, though. I am determined not to miss recording new pregnancies, because ALL my babies have had that done for them, and I don't want any future children to come to discover that there is nothing about when I was pregnant with them. Plus it keeps me sane to write about pregnancy or whether or not I might be pregnant. It used to keep me sane to write about parenting, but these days I have other outlets to help me (prayer, Facebook, groups online that I'm part of) and I also have changed a lot. I was finding my feet as a parent before, and now... I don't have it all sorted (ohhhh FAR from it!) but I am confident and experienced now, compared with before. I don't "need" to blog like I did before, and it's just as well, because I simply CAN'T find the time!
I wish the world at large could know my littlest treasures like the older ones. They are delightful! I'm sorry. I don't need to be, but I FEEL apologetic. To the people reading my blog who feel they are missing out, to myself (who wishes so much to have the prolific written records of their babyhood, toddlerhood, and childhoods), and to my children, who haven't got that to look back on.
I absolutely do not "like it". I can't think why it would look like I prefer to keep my littlest 3 "unknown"!?
Anyway. While I'm here - no increase in temp yet. Day 11 of EWCM (!!!), but I am sure I have ovulation pain today. We'll see in the morning. Must fall into bed now.
Tuesday, 14 April 2015
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Oh these boloney commenters are driving me nuts! What do they know! I feel I know and see just as much about every one of your children and they all seem purely delightful to me. May God bless your family whether you have 10 or 0 more. :)
I agree with Mallory. When it comes down to it, this blog is for you and you can write whatever you want on it and stuff anyone who doesn't like it! :)
I agree with Mallory. When it comes down to it, this blog is for you and you can write whatever you want on it and stuff anyone who doesn't like it! :)
I feel like this is all my fault :( My first comment was really the thing that started this...I'm really sorry. I honestly just meant to express that I was interested in hearing how your other kids were doing. I'm sorry - I can see how you took it the wrong way (now that I've read it again, it comes off as kind of mean - not my intention at all) :/ Anyways, I do agree with Mallory - any updates about you and your family are wonderful! :) I really really do apologize for my other comment.
Yes, what Shelby said! So many of my longtime bloggy friends have decided to go private and I miss hearing their family stories! But it's totally their decision and what's best for their husband/children. That's all I meant by my comment. I didn't want to come across as saying that you "owed me" an update because it's completely up to you what you share! I didn't mean to upset you or make you feel bad!
You have absolutely no reason to feel guilty about anything, but if you wanted a quick and easy way to document family life for a wider audience, how about setting up an "Arthur's Mummy" (or something more relevant these days lol!) facebook page?
Those of us lucky enough to be friends with you on Facebook know for certain that there is plenty of written and visual record of ALL of your beautiful babies! Sometimes the little snippets of conversation that you post, or photos of sweet moments, or your reflections on midnight parenting say much more than any long rambly blog post could! And in years to come, you will have all those sweet status updates to reflect on. Don't feel guilty for not giving anyone else the "experience" that they want from your blog. It's your blog, not theirs, and if someone wants to read about daily life with x amount of children, well, it's a big Internet! What I'm trying to say is, write about what you are moved to write about and try to put the mama guilt behind you (as hard as that is). You will remember all the truly important parts in your heart, anyway. -Andrea
Thank you Andrea! :) xxx
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