10DPO and calling it

Well, I've amazingly arrived at 10 days past ovulation! I want to update my chart but there's explanations to go with stuff so I wanted to do a quick post here so that nobody jumps to conclusions (good or bad!).

I tested this morning and I am going to call it and chart a positive pregnancy test! BUT, with caution, so not the usual "Wheeeeeeeee, I'm pregnant!!!!" thing! If this is a chemical pregnancy, it's the clearest positive I've ever had, but it's still so whisper faint that it makes me unconfident.

I also have a bit of a temp drop this morning, from 36.9 to 36.7. That's still a high temp for me (and possibly still high enough for a triphasic chart - I'll find that out in a minute when I enter my data on the chart for today), but because it has come down from even higher, it makes me wary, especially at this stage with my history. I also have a stonk-tastic headache this morning, and it was kicking my butt by the time I got in bed last night too. It wasn't there during the night-wakings with Benjamin, but it's really sore today. Sometimes I get bad headaches right before a period starts. I also feel hot and congested in my womb area, and while that could be a continuation of pregnancy symptoms, my lack of confidence as explained leads me to worry that it's because I'm going to get my period.

BUT, I'm excited (cautiously!) about the BFP! :) The faint line was visible around the 5 minute mark, it fills the whole "fatness" of where a positive result line should be, and it's too faint to really tell but I think it has a hint of pink colour to it. I can see it in any light, at most angles, and even in this room (just settled Benji to sleep for a nap) with the curtains drawn - so shaded light. I get worried that I've just trained my eyes to see NOTHING with my craziness over the last couple of days staring at negative test sticks, especially yesterday when I was fiddling with the photo to try to enhance what I was sure I could see! ;) I think when this one has dried I'll try to take another photo of all three together so that I can see if it really is a stronger line than the others. So far I can still see a shadowy line on the other two as well, so I'm not sure if it will look stronger today or not, especially on a photo. I definitely see a line, and they say that a line is a line, so.... I just hope I can photograph it so that you can see what I mean. It's sooo faint...

Anyway, with any sort of temp drop at 10DPO, I'm nervous that I'll just start bleeding anyway later, so I will not relax about it today probably. I hope I get to tomorrow so I can confirm one way or the other - lower temp, or stronger test.

I'm going to chart a positive test result now, and my lower temp. My skin is still weirdly soft. I just thought that might throw up a bit of confusion, and I also didn't want anyone jumping up and down thinking I had a good clear strong test result! I feel insecure about the result. I know I see a line, and I never really do get to that joyful point properly before my period shows with chemical pregnancies normally, but still. I just feel nervous about it. I love seeing a little line of evidence that somebody is in there producing a hormone to confirm their tiny presence!!! But attachment like that makes me even more nervous for it to all disappear.

I will update later as usual, because I may get my period yet today, or have other noteworthy symptoms to post. I'm calling it a BFP, but not "yay, I'm really actually PREGNANT!!" yet, if that makes sense! :)